Surgery Next Week

Another month gap in posting. No real excuse this time just not that much going on. There was some debate over whether or not to proceed with my second surgery. My surgeon got some second opinions from her "tumor board" and I had another mammogram to help clarify whether or not it was necessary to go back in to remove more tissue. She said that the results weren't conclusive but that her gut feeling was that we should do it. I figure she's the hot shit surgeon that every raves about being "the best", so if her gut feeling says do it, then I'm not going to object.
She did warn me that it would not come out as cosmetically nice as the first surgery. That first surgery actually came out amazing, way better than I expected. Except for a couple scars, my boob hardly looks any different than before. I guess after this next one it will probably look a bit deformed but at least I get to keep it.
So I'm scheduled for this coming Thursday morning (2/16) not so conveniently just 2 days before Jet's birthday party. I was up and around pretty quickly after the last surgery and this one should be even easier so I'm not too concerned about it.
Other than that, I've been feeling fine. Energy level is pretty good, I try to get some exercise almost every day. Usually it's just walking or hiking or an occasional Zumba class. Finger tips are still tingly, finger nails are still separating from the nail bed but I don't think I'll actually lose any. (but man do they look disgusting) My muscles feel real tight most of the time but that is slowly getting better. The hot flashes continue but are getting less frequent. I think my ovaries may be coming back on line.
I've been reading a bunch and going out to lunch a lot. Getting errands done and making dinner more often. Pretty simple stuff. More importantly, I'm much more accepting of how I spend my time and not feeling guilty for unproductive days. That's a small breakthrough for me.

I've also got some hair growing on my head! But I'll save that for another post. :)